Showhar na mahram larkiun se chat karna

Mera sawaal ye he ke mery husband namehrum larkiun se chat krty hain. Darasal mein ne past me kch galatian ki the jinki me ny Allah sy tauba our maafi mangi. Our apny shohar ko sab kch sach sach btaya shadi sy phly. Me enhy ksi kisam ka dhoka nhi dena chahti the. Puri emaandari ke sath en sy shadi krna chahti the. Us wqt enho ne mjy maaf kar dia our mujh sy shadi ki. Aaj 12 saal bad enho ny mjy mera past yad dilana shru kar dia our mujh sy badla leny ke lye larkiun sy dostian krty hn. Me ne bht wazaef kiye duaein mangi ke ye asa na krn our rahe raast py a jyen mgr hamary jhgrey shru ho gye hn. Kuch samjh nh ata kya krn? Kbhi mayoos ho jati hun kbhi purumeed. Jis larki sy dosti ha wo bhi shadishuda our 2 larkiun ki maa ha. Usy me ny mna bhi kia mgr wo baaz nh ae. Kindly meri preshani door kare. Mjy koi wazeefa btaein ya phr mjy btaein yh mery maazi me kiye gye gunahu ki sza ha? Kya meri tauba qabool nhi hui? Me kya krun? Me apny shohar sy behud pyar krti hun mgr samjh nh ata unhy kasy yad dilaun ke unho ny mujh sy pyar kr k shadi ki the. Har wqt me jalti khurti our preshan rehti hun.